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2010-03-24T14:30:00.026+08:00

SO HERE GOES A TALE OF THE REALEST OF THE REAL

NOW ONCE UPON A TIME IN A SMALL WORLD.
IT WAS EVERYTHING TAT I DREAMED OF
HE WAS MY GEM N I WAS HIS PEARL NOTHING CLD CUM BETWEEN US.A PRINCE CHARMING TO CALL MY OWN UNTILTHE DAY TAT HE BROKE MY HEART AND LEFT ME WOUNDER IN ALL ALONE PICKING MY MIND N SOUL APART.USED TO BELIVE IN LOVE,USED TO BELIVE IN FAIRY TALES SINCE MY HEART'S BEEN CRUSHED I DONT BELIVE IN MUCH I NEED HELP DNT NOE WHICH WAY TO TURN.FIGURE IT OUT FOR MYSELF.I'VE JUZ STARTED TO LEARN THERE NO SUCH THING AS FAIR TALES..IS A GOOD STORY SUPPOSE TO END UNHAPPILY EVER AFTER?JUZ AS WOUNDERFUL AS IT BEGINS N CARRY ON FOR A FEW CHAPTERS... BABY HOW CUM EACH TIME I OPEN UP I CANT SEEN TO GET PASS PAGE ONE..I GUESS ITS TIME FOR ME TO CLOSE UP N GO BACK ON THE SHELF BCAUSE IM DONE...

TWINKLE TWINKLE LITTLE STARS

WHY DO MY DREAMS SEEM SO FAR ..

UP ABOVE THE WORLD SO HIGH

WNT SOMEBODY TELL ME WHY..

CAN U HELP ME OUT

CAN YOU TELL ME WHAT LOVE ALL ABOUT?..

CAUSE I NEVER KNOWN IT FOR MYSELF....

BECAUSE LIFE IS NOT A FAIRY TALES

..... BOY MEETS GURL ......

2010-03-24T14:19:00.006+08:00

WANT AND NEED

??????

WAT THE DIFFRENCE BETWEEN WANT N NEED?

FOR ME WANT IS NT IMPORTANT TO HAVE WHILE

NEED IS IMPORTANT A MUST .

FREN TOLD ME FRM HER POINT OF VIEW IS...

NEED IS SUMTHING TAT U REALI NEED IN LYF WHILE

WANT IS LIKE WISH,

U WANT SOMETHING TAT ITS IS NOT COMFIRM U WILL GET IT OR NT..

SOOO HE ONLY WANT ME WAT SLD I DO NOW...??

I AM WHAT I AM

2010-03-23T17:29:00.008+08:00

HEY IM BACK IM NOT WORKING FOR NOW TAT WHY IM BLOGGING AGN!!

I ARGUE WIF HYM N MAKE HYM PISS FOR THE 2ND TIME AGN WELL IT MA WRONG TO REJECT HIS COL MANY TYME BUT I DNT MEAN IT ...SERIUSLY ...HAIZZ OH ALLAH PLZ HELP ME SOFTEN HIS HEART N HV BELIEVE IN ME AGN...

I AM WHO I AM

IM AN ANGLE IM A DEVIL IM SOMETIME IN BETWEEN..IM AS BAD AS IT CAN GET N AS GOOD AS IT CAN BE..SOMETIME IM A MILLION COLOURS SOMETIME IN BLACK N WHITE..IM ALL EXTREME TRY TO FIGURE ME OUT BUT YOU NEVER CAN..THERE SO MANY THING IM..IM SPECIAL..IM BEAUTFUL..IM WOUNDERFUL...POWERFUL N UNSTOPPABLE...SOMETIME IN MISERABLE SOMETIME PITTFUL BUT THAT SO TYPICAL OF ALL THE THING I AM...IM SOMEONE FILLED WITH SELF-BELEIF IM HAUNTED BY SELF DOUBT..I'VE GOT ALL THE ANSWERS I'VE GOT NOTHING FIGURED OUT ...I LIKE TO BE BY MYSELF I HATE TO BE ALONE...IM UP N DOWN BUT THAT PART OF THE TRILL,PART OF THE PLAN,PART OF ALL THE THINGS I AM..IM A MILLION CONTRIDICTIONS SOMETIME I MAKE NO SENSE..SOMETIME IM PERFECT SOMETIME IM IN A MESS N SOMETIME

IM NOT SURE WHO I AM!...

NO ONE HAVE THE POWER TO CHANGE URSELF EXCEPT YOU URSELF!!

2010-01-18T13:11:00.004+08:00

WE ARE FADING AWAY SLOWLY DAE BY DAE!!...

TAT IS WAT I FEEL NOW....

IN LIFE THERE ARE ALOT OF PASSING CLOUD...

EITHER U HOLD IT OR LET IT GO...

LOVE IT OR HATE IT TAT LIFE OR WATCH IT FADE ...

U CHOOSE TO LIVE TAT WAY NO ONE CAN CHANGE EXCEPT URSELF...

BOTH WAY NEED TO PLAY APART TO BE STRONG TOGETHER FIND THE RYTE PATH TO GET ALONG....

BUT SUMTYME YOU HAVE TO LET IT FREE FOR A REASON..

EVEN IF U LIKE/LOVE THEM...

IN LIFE U HAVE TO BE PATIENCE TOO...

NOT ALWAES WAT U WANT U WILL GET....TAT LIFE....

FOR NOW I JUST FEEL LIFE IS UNFAIR BUT THER NO REASON FOR ME TO GIVE UP....

ALWAES GIVE IT IT A TRY IF IT MEANT TO BE IT WILL...

LEARN FROM MISTAKE N BE BETTER IN FUTURE....

OUHHK LET ME SEE WAT GONNA HAPPEN NXT...

TAT ALL FOR NOW...

MISSING THE OLD YOU!!! TAKING CARIES!!!

IM SICK N TIRED!!!!....

2010-01-14T16:38:00.005+08:00

IM SICK SICK SICK!!!!!!!!!

N IM TIRED..............HAHAHA

LAST FEW DAYS MY SICK-NESS TOOK OVER ME OMG CNT STAND IT LAH....

IT MAKE ME TIRED...HAHHAAH....

WELL TODAY IM OFF PEOPLE N I HV NO PLAN!!!!

OMG LAST MONDAY TOOK MY BTT FOR THE 2ND TIME N

I FAILED AGN WTF RYTE!!!!PISS HMPH!!!!

SO AYN CUMING OVER LATER MAYB...HEHEH!!!

GUESS WAT I THINK IM SITTING AT HOME THIS SAT AGN BORING !!!

HAHAHA OTEY LAHH BABY CYA ARD ....

I UPDATE MY MIXPOD MUSIC HAHAX I LIKE THE LADY DANCE MOVE...

TAKECARE MY LOVE!!!!

TOOOO DAYYYYY!!!!!

2010-01-06T20:48:00.011+08:00

HEYY PEOPLE !!!! JUZ NOW I WORK IT WAS SUPER BORING I FELT ASLP SEHHH....I WHEN HOME N NID TO COOK FOR MY FAMILY DINNER HAIZZ....GUESS WAT I COOK MY FAV...'BLACK PEPPER CHICKEN' TURN OUT GREAT ....OUHH YAHH SAYING ABT BLACK PEPPER I WAN THE MEAL AT MAC I BEEN WAITING FOR TAT BLACK PEPPER BEEF N THE TWISTER FRIES!!!OMG GOT TO GRAB TAT SOON ...HEHE NOW IM BORED AT HOME IT BEEN DAES I FELT TIZ WAY ....MAYBE THER SUMTHING I NID TO THINK ABT...

YESTERDAYYYY!!!!

OUUUHHH YAHHH YEST WHN TO MIT SHIQIN N THE REST...I WAS SHOCK WHN A GUY BY THE NAME OF DAMA USE TO NOE ME WAS SOOO PAISEHHH!!!HAHAH...WELL WATEVA LAH GUYS ALL THE SAME...ERMM GOT ABIT PISS YEST I DNT REALLY NOE WAT ARE U TRYING TO DO OR WAT U'R THINKING...YOU KEPT ASKING DAMA TO SEND ME HOME BY HIS BIKE ...WAS SO PAISEHHH ..KEPT ASKING ME TO GO LIKE IM WAT KIND OF GURL HAISHH I CN GO HOME MYSELF OK...I NOE HOW TO CUM N IM SURE I CAN GO MYSELF TOO...HIASHHH DNT NOE LAH...NO COMMENT READY...IM PATIENCE ENOUGH ...DROP IT LAH KAE...

LOVEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!

OUHHH YAH IM LETTING GO MY LOVE LIFE THER NO POINT FOR ME COZ I KEPT HURTING MYSELF INSIDE...IF IT WANNA CUM IT WILL...SO IM NOT PUTTING ANY HOPE NO LONGER AS NOW IT A BRAND NEW YEAR I NEED TO GRAB HOLD OF MYSELF....I CN DO THING ON MY OWN I CN FIND MY OWN WAY...THERE ALOT OF LADIES N MENS OUT THERE ANYTIME THEY CN PASS YOUR OR MINE WAY... MAYB IM NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO GRAB HOLD OF YOU FOR NOW SOO IM LETTING YOU DO WANT YOU WANT IS NOT TAT I DNT CARE JUZ TAT I NEED TO U'STND MORE N OPEN UP ABIT...IF WE WERE MENT FOR EACH OTHER IM SURE WE WILL GET BACK AS PER NORMAL....NVM DNT WANNA THINK ANYMORE....MY HEART IS STILL CLOSE 2YEARS NOW...WELL MAYB ONE DAE I NOE SOME1 WILL ARRIVE AT THE DOOR STEP WITH THE KEY...HAIZZ....WAITING!!!

TAT ALL FOR NOW....

TAKECARE PEOPLE!

LISTENING TO "SLIPPED AWAY"

IM BACK!!! UPDATE ABT NEW YEAR 2010!!!!

2010-01-06T19:45:00.024+08:00

PARTY TIL DAWN!!!!............
NJOY!!!!!..IF YOU CAN SOO CAN WE....HEHEX!!

I CELEBERATE MY 2010 BY NJOYING LADIES NIGHT OUT TIL DAWN IT WAS CRAZY FUN N TIRING!!!....SOME GOT DRUNK SOME WHEN CRZAY!!! WE MAKE SOME FRENS TOO (LADIES N MENS)....AS FOR ME I WHN ABIT CRAZY MAYB NOT ABIT HAHAHA TIL GET MYSELF DIZZY COZ WAS SPINNING JUMPING RUNNING UP N DOWN HAHAHA...THE BEST PART WAS I GOT TO SEE THE FIREWORK ONLY ME THE REST WAS NOT WITH ME THEY WERE INDOORS...IT WAS ABIT SAD COZ MY WISH WAS TO CATCH TAT FIREWORKS WITH TAT SUM1 BEHIND ME N HUGGING ME BUT I WAS ALL ALONE FOR THE 1ST TIME NOT EVEN MY FRENS WERE THER ..NVM ATLEAST THE FIREWORKS WAS SUUPERRR!!!! AS PPL SAID LOOK AT THE BRIGHT SIDE...HAHA..MAYB IT WAS MENT TO BE...WELL OVER ALL EVERYONE HAD THEIR FUN TIME...AND THERE ARE SOME THING HAPPEN TO ME TAT DAE BUT LET IT BE INSIDE...HAHAH....TILL THN NJOY THE PICX WE TOOK....

NURUL .. CATZ ...BABY

BABY..MEOW...KID...AYN

ML LADIES

NURUL ...MEOW... BABY

VIEW MORE COUNTDOWN PICX IN FACEBOOK!!!...
THX YOU....PEACE!!!

WHAT AM I THINKING!!!

2009-12-30T13:06:00.005+08:00

LATER IM WORKING I HAVE NO MOOD TO DO ANYTHING YET TODAY...I KEPT THINKING ABT HIM ...HAIZZ ....ONLY LEFT ONE DAE TO COUNTDOWN N YET IM NT HAPPY...I DNT NOE WAT TO DO...IT BEEN DAES I NVR MEET MY GIRLS THEY KEPT ASKING ME TO MEET THM BUT I DNT NOE WHY I DNT ....MAYB JUZ WAIT FOR 2MORROW HAHAZ ....

NOW IM JUZ WAITING WHAT GONNA HAPPEN NEXT...MY PATIENCE OF WAITING ...THE ANS IS IN HIS HAND,CONTINUE OR NOT WHO NOE...

MY MIND IS BLANK SOO MAYB I GONNA REST 4 AWHILE...

KAEZ PEOPLE....CHOZZZIE....

XOXO N HACKS!!

MISSING YOU J

DEEP WITHIN ME SHOUTING!!!!

2009-12-29T14:45:00.006+08:00

IM REALLY REALLY DOWN N IM CRYING NOW!! ...WANNA NOE WHY SUMONE CHANGE BCOZ OF MY MISTAKE MY ATTITUDE MY HUSH WORDS....I DNT REALLY MEAN IT..DEEP WITHIN ME IF I CLD JUZ TURN BACK TIME I WOULD JUZ HOLD HIS HAND N WNT LET YOU GO COZ IM MISSING YOU NOW, THE ONE I USE TO NOE AT THE BEGINNING..THE ONE WHO USE TO TEASE ME LAUGH WITH ME .WHO NEVER FAIL TO MAKE ME SMILE,JOKE WIF ME,SLACK WITH ME..CALL N MSG ME...MOVIE N EAT WITH ME,HOLD MY HAND,HUG ME N EVEN SEND ME INFRONT OF MY DOOR STEP ...N I JUZ MISS THAT SUMONE I LET THAT SLIP AWAY WITH MY WORDS..HAISHH NOW I JUZ HOPE N WISH VERY MUCH THAT HE CLD CUM BACK ....I NOE PEOPLE CHANGE N NO ONE IS PERFECT BUT HERE IM PUTTING MY HEART TO BE PERFECT ....IM SOWIE IF I REALLY HURT YOU BUT REALLY I DNT MEAN IT... I DNT WANNA END THIS WAYS WITH HATRED IN THE HEART..I WANNA MAKE THING BETTER I WANNA IT TO BE BACK TO NORMAL...I STILL WANT YOU IN MY LIFE...I HOPE YOU COULD FORGIVE ME SOON..COZ I REMEMBER ONCE YOU SAID B4 ' I WNT GET ANGRY EASILY' NOW I NOE I MAKE U ANGRY N TAT IS WAT I USE TO SAID ONE DAE I WILL MAKE U ANGRY ...I NOE NOW HOW IZZIT WHN U'R ANGRY N I CNT TAKE IT ANYMORE YOU BEING QUIET NOT LOOKING FOR ME I JUZ CNT STNAD IT...PLZZZ CUM BACK...IM SORIE I NOE MY MISTAKE N I LEARN FRM IT NOW ...PLZ...

I HAVE NO MOOD TO THINK OF ANYTHING RYTE NOW...

TAT ALL I CAN WRITE ..

SOMTHING JUZ LET IT BE IN MY HEART...

CATZ LISTENING TO 'WHY BY AVRIL LAVIGNE'

TAKECARE PEOPLE..

N HACKS TO YOU A.R!!

I LOVE MY LONG HAIR...SUMTIME SHORT BUT MOST LONG HAIR IS WOUNDER TO ME...!!!!

2009-12-27T21:42:00.020+08:00

MY FAV HAIR!!!!

SHORT HAIR!!!

SHORT HAIR!!!
HAIR HAIR HAIR MAKE ME WOUMDER!!!

HAIR COLOUR!!! CRAZY SEXY LOVE IT!!!

THIS ARE SOME OF MY MANY MANY PIC ABT MY HAIR....SOME ARE LONG N IF U CN SEE THERE ARE SHORT HAIR TOO YOOO!!!!HEHEH

I LOVE MY HAIR SOOO MUCHH BUT MOST I LOVE IT TO BE LONG AS I CAN PLAY WITH IT...EVEN CURL OR STRAIGHT HAHA JUZ LOVE IT....N I LOVE MY PICTURES!!! HAHAH....

KNOWING MYSELF!!!!

2009-12-26T19:05:00.004+08:00

I CANNOT BE A DUMMY IF I NOE DEEP WITHIN ME IM REAL...YET SOME PEOPLE MAY MISUNDERSTOOD ME, DNT RECOGNIZE MY EXISTENCE N DNT EVN BOTHER TO TAKE A SIMPLE GLIMPSE OF MY WORTH...BUT THIS IS WHAT I WANT TO SAY WHAT YOU SEE IS NEVER ALWAYS WHAT YOU GET...JUDGE ME ?? WELL IT DEPENDS ON WHAT YOU SEE..BUT KNOWING ME?? IS UR CREATIVITY TO LOOK DEEPER...PEEL WHATEVER COVER YOU CLD SEE....COZ DEEP WITHIN ME IS WHAT MAKE ME HUMAN..NOT PERFECT BUT JUZ THE REAL ONE....

LOVE LOVE!!!!!!!!!

2009-12-26T18:24:00.009+08:00

I NOE AFT THINKING N THINKING ABT A RELATIONSHIP TAT ENDED PAINFULLY HAS TRIED IN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER, TO TAKE THE BLAME FOR IT ENDING. THE BOTTOM LINE IS TAT WHN A MEN REALLY LOVE YOU AND WANT TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP,NO ONE COMMENT OR INCIDENT IS EVER THE REASON THE RELATIONSHIP ENDED. THERE ARE LOTS OF WAYS TO DEAL WITH ISSUES OR DIFFRENCES OF OPINION IN A RELATIONSHIP TAT DNT INVOLVE BREAKING UP .

FUTHERMORE , NOBODY IS PERFECT. NO DOUBT UR EX HAD MANY FLAWS HIMSELF.SO WHY SLD YOU EXPECT URSELF TO BE FLAWLESS? SO MAYBE YOU WEREN'T ALWAYS A BOWLS OF LAUGH,BUT WHO IS?

WHATEVA YOU WERE DOING ,YOU WERE BEING URSELF,IT MAYB TAT THER ARE SUMTHING ABT YOU TAT YOU'D LIKE TO CHANGE BUT THER IS NO REASON TAT THEY COULD'T HAVE BEEN WORKED ON IN THE CONTEXT OF THE RELATIONSHIP.

IT WILL PROBABLY TAKE ME SUMTYME TO THINK OF MYSELF AS BEING SINGLE.FOR SOME PPL IT HELPS TO SAY IT OUT LOUD IT START TO MAKE IT FEEL REAL. FOR OTHERS SAYING IT OUT LOUD B4 YOU'VE DIGESTED IT IN UR HEAD IS JUZ TOO PAINFUL. BECOMING SINGLE AGN IS SIMILAR TO BEING ALONE AGN IN TAT IT TAKES TIME TO PROCESS N YOU MAY FIND TAT SOMETIMES YOU'VE FORGOTTEN TAT U'R SINGLE AND THN IT CUM BACK TO YOU AND FEELS LIKE A TON OF BRICKS CRASHING ON YOUR HEAD. OBVIOUSLY, BIG CHANGES TAKE SOME TIME TO GET USE TO.. BEING SINGLE CAN BE AWESOME IF IT'S WAT YOU WANT OR SOMETIME EVN WHN IT'S NOT WAT YOU WAN LONG TERM. BUT IN ORDER TO ENJOY IT YOU HAVE TO GET COMFORTABLE WITH IT. NO MATTER HOW YOU SLICE IT, BEING SINGLE MEANS MORE FREEDOM. LETS CONSIDER WHAT'S POTENTIALLY FRIGHTENING ABT TAT N WAT GREAT ABT IT...

IT'S QUITE POSSIBLE TAT MANY OF MY GIRLS ARE IN A RELATIONSHIP. AS I NOE FRM MY EXPERIENCE, SINGLE LADIES ARE A MOVING TARGET - ONE MIN THEY ARE SINLGE, THE NEXT MIN THEY ARE NOT. THIS MAY NOT SEEM IMPORTANT TO ME. I LOVE MY GIRLFRIENDS WHO ARE SINGLE.

THE THING IS IT IS IMPORTANT TO HAVE A GIRLFRIENDS WHO ARE EXPERIENCING LYF SIMILARLY TO THE WAY IM N WHO WANT TO DO THE KINDS OF THINGS I WANT TO DO. IT IS IMPORTANT TO HAVE FREINDS WHO ARE AVAILABLE TO HANG OUT ON FRIDAE N SATURDAE NIGHTS. HAHAHA....

SWEET SMILE N DAE!!

2009-12-11T19:59:00.007+08:00

Hey ...yesterdae i whn out to meet hym at ubi thn we whn pasir ris aft tat ard 8pm we whn to tamp to pass things to his bro n was planning to watch a movie aft tat but we were late so ther only left one movie tat he oready watch soo we left wif no plan..soo we whn to my area to eat western thn slack til late morning he was half dead by thn n both r working in the morning...

hahha wat happen whn we slack was CRAZY!!!!...

ouhhk 2dae whn to work in the morning wif a tired face...i woke hym up in the morning n f**k luch tyme he msg me tat he got throw out of work!! it was a joke i was piss 4awhile...ermm i whn back at 1pm n i ate my meal n whn to my LALA LAND!!n it was GREAT!!!!..omg im soo piss wif tiz one guy tat msg me n said gt my num frm fb or tag..i dnt evn give my num ther !!!soo piss off lah!!!....yeahhh tomorrow im off...n its my DAD bdae!! n zock out too but i dnt think im going haha...well tat 4 now...

...n for now im not really in love yet !! but lets wait n see who have the GOLD PRINCESS key to unlock ...

ouhhhkkk people mayb 2nyte im going out to watch movie..

i update 2morrow...cya ard...peace!! love u all!!

SMILE SMILE !!

2009-12-09T11:35:00.004+08:00

gd morning ladies n gentlemens......
today im off n tomorrow too...im fine 2dae juz abit down inside wanna noe why coz yest at work i got to noe tat i cnt go off on the 31st dec n u wanna noe wat going on tat dae,its countdown dae wher everyone looking forward n me working til nyte...haizz!! M.L ladies n me had oready plan wher we r going but wat the hell i can go...haizz...mayb i sld make a 2nd plan ltr...sad lah sob2!!!nvm look at the bright side n smile owaes ...i cn go crazy!!!....

ouuhhkkk drop tat...wat i gonna do 2dae ...mayb i going out or juz sit at home n watch tv...not sure yet plan not comfirm ...why do my life alwaes full of last min plan....haizz ....nvm....well not much to sae coz juz woke up n my mind is blank....i update soon lah k...hahha...

abt love lyf dnt ask me is still the same im confuss ...juz waiting for the light to show me the way...im waiting wif a smile whn u cum...heheh....

ouuhhhk people!!! chozzieee.....cya!!! much love!!!

I HAD BEEN THINKING !!!!

2009-12-08T12:36:00.004+08:00

hey last few daes alot of things happen...well last saturday i whn to ira small chalet it was great...aft tat i whn to watch movie at tamp mall...ermmm wat am i missing now is sum1 tat use to tok to me n everything n tat is MR.CICAK MAN ...haizz i dnt really noe wher to start writing the story mayb let it be in my heart....
oookk now im confuss abt lyf ...haizz im working 2dae at 4pm...bored lah but well look at the bright side im off for 2daes aft tiz...

btw i kept thinking abt what Jon told me in the morning juz now abt her ex girlfren...well she noe abit of me i guess or mayb not coz it was juz an info ..well mayb her fren was my pri fren soo who cares...anywaes mayb she juz wanna get back 2gether wif Jon, i said tat coz she noes most of the ladies tat Jon whn out wif.... bt Jon im not sure no comment abt tat...well i dnt wanna be in the middle hahah....i juz wish all the best to all...let leave it to Allah...

n to Mr A.R ...im not sure wat going on ard it still unclear....we got to figure it out soon aitz...
cya soon we will go for ativities kaes...takecare...for now let us be patience n face all tiz wif smile...ouuhkkk....

M.L LADIES!!!!!!
WELL IM MISSING OUR GROUP OUTING....IM LOOKING FORWARD FOR THE CHALET LETS PARTY!!!!! HAHAHA....love u all to bits....

PEACE N OUT DICKIES CHICKIES
-hacks to you noe who-

EVENING OUTING !!!

2009-12-03T19:34:00.008+08:00

YEST AFTER WORK ARD 2PM I RUSH HOME TO PREPARE MYSELF ....JON N ME PLANNING TO GO OUT ...I COMPANY HYM TO GET HIS PAY AT BUGIS FRM HIS FRENS...HAHAX I OREADY GOT SANDEE WALLET TAT SHE REALLY WANTED...ERMM WE WHN TO FAR EAST JUZ TO EAT THN WE WHN BACK TO BUGIS IDOT RYTE WE CN JUZ EAT AT BUGIS HAHHA....WELL WE WHN BACK TO BUGIS TO MIT HIS FRENS N DRINK N CHAT...WELL THEY DRINK N NOT ME I JUZ HAD WINTERMELON..HAHAH..THN AFT ALL JON N ME TOOK CAB TO SUN N WE SLACK THER WIF MA GF N I PITY JON COZ HE WAS HALF DEAD..AFT 2AM I WHN CRAZY ...JON KIP HITTING ME N ALSO CALL ME A BIMBO WAT THE....HAIZ NVM THN IT WAS 4+AM HE WHN HOME ...THER MORE BUT LAZY TO WRITE HAHA OVER ALL IT WAS GREAT!! NICE MITTING FIR(JON GAY PARTNER AT WORK)HAHAH, N THE OTHER TWO HIS FREN TOO...WELL THX TO JON TO FOR BRING ME OUT ...

THE FUNNY PART OF THE STORY YEST WAS ABT JON RAIHAN!!...
HE WANTED TO TAP OUT OF THE MRT BUT WAS NOT LOOKING AT THE CARD N U NOE WAT HE TAP A HAPPY 128 CARD..HE WAS STUCK THER ABT 1MIN HAHA...FUNNY...

OUHHK 2DAE IM NOT WORKING I WOKE UP AT 3PM...TIRED...NOW IM BORED NTHG MUCH TO DO..WELL I GUESS I JUZ GO N WATCH TV...OUHHHK SEE U GUYS AGN...CHOZZZIEE...
XOXO TO U...

LADY'S FEELING !!!

2009-12-01T10:45:00.010+08:00

I AM HAPPY YET SAD INSIDE....IM LISTENING TO 'BROKEN HEARTED GIRL BY BEYONCE'SONG ...
ERMMM WELL I DNT REALLY NOE WAT I WAn OR WAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO...HAIZZ 4GET IT..IM WAITING AGN WHILE SLOWLY IM MOVING ....SUMTYME I JUZ WISH U CLD SEE HOW I FELT N U'STND BT THE FACT TAT I NOE I CLD NOT GET YOU IN ANYWAES...I U'STND TAT ,SUMTYME I CNT GET WHAT I WANT BT ITS OUHHK IM STRONG NW..

YESTERDAE ...
I WENT OUT TO MIT MR.J ...WELL FOR ME HIS SILENCE N SMILE MAKE ME WOUNDER WAT HIS FEELING N THINKING WELL ONLI ALLAH NOES NVM MAYB I WILL TAKE IT SLOW...ERMM FOR ME HE IS CUTE N U'STNDING YET PATIENCE 4 NOW HEHE...I FELT BUTTERFLY EVERY TIME MY EYES CATCHES HIS BUT IM HAPPY EVERYTIME HE JOKE N SMILE...I KEEP LAUGHING TO COVER MY BLUSH HEHEX..N U NOE WAT I TRY TO LOOK AT HIM WHNEVER HIS NOT LOOKING HEHEHX SUMTYME ...WAT AN IDIOT..HAHHA...

LEPAK TYME!!!!!
HEHEHX...I WHEN DOWN TO LPK....EVERYONE HAVE ACCPT AYN,ALIN,AWIN N IRA SMALL...ERMM YEST WE HAD 2 VISTER AT SUN BY THE NAME OF JON N FARHAN...IT WAS REALLY FUUNY WHN IKA BRING HYM ALONG HAHA...THEY BITCHES ARD LYKE HELL...WE LAUGH ALOT ...N I NOE I NVR SAE NEXT!!! NOW JON NOE WATs TAT OHHH GOD....HAHAH...WELLL OVER ALL IT WAS SUPER..N I WOULD LIKE TO THANK JON RAIHAN FOR YOUR COMPANY N MAKING ME LAUGH...N PLZ JON JON DNT SAE NEXT TO ME ...!!! WELL HOPE TO SEE YA SOON...MISSING U ALL M.L LADIES!!! HANG ARD SOON YAH...ACTIVATE N OUTING YAH M.L !!!

LASTLY I WOULD LIKE TO SAE IM MISSING YOU!!! XOXO HACKS...

EVERYTHING IS DOWN !!!!

2009-11-27T20:15:00.005+08:00

TODAY NOW RYTE TIZ VERY SECOND MY HEART IS SHOUTING INSIDE N CRYING AGN...
WHY WANNA NOE WHY??

BCOZ SUM1 PULL ME DOWN BY MSGING ME WRONGLY...I DNT NOE WAT TO DO ...YOU DNT EVEN NOE WAT GOING ON WIF ME N WAT HAPPENING TIZ LAST FEW DAYS...U JUZ HAVE TO MAKE IT PERFECT DNT YOU ...U PUT ME UP HIGH N JUZ DROP ME JUZ LYKE TAT...I HOPE 1DAE MA PAITENCE N MA WORK PAY OFF...IM NOT TAT EVIL BUT SUMTYME I JUZ FEEL LIKE DOING SUMTHING REALLY BAD JUZ TO GIV U WAT IT TASTE LIKE...I CARE FOR YOU N TRY NOT TO HURT YOU...BUT NVM I NOE WAT TO DO...HAIZZ TKCR XOXO....

LIFE FULL UP N DOWN EVERYTHING ELSE IS OUHK FOR NOW JUZ TAT I LOST ALL MA CTCT NUM..N SHAHRIZAN I HOPE CLD MIT U UP SOON..MIZZ U SEH CICAK MAN!!..

DEEP IN MY HEART SHOUTING !!!

2009-11-25T19:11:00.009+08:00

Waiting for someone you love is never easy most especially when he's not aware that you're waiting....

I don't know why I'm so afraid to lose u when u r not even mine. I don't know why I luv u so when u don't even luv me. I don't know why u r the one when I'm just a someone to u...

You'll never understand why Im hurt so much because you're not the one who is crying, you're not the one who is left behind, you're not the one who loved too much, and you're not the one who is holding on to someone who is gone..

WHAT_HAD_I_DONE

2009-11-02T13:13:00.009+08:00

Good Noon Ppl....
hey frm yest night i felt abit down mayb bcoz i said or did sumthing wrong...unsure n unclear wats the reason is but he change aft we talk on the phone....well mayb it my fault...frm the way he talk to me last night make me feel guilty ...im not perfect so are you...i still wan u in my lyf as we juz noe each other n ther no point ending now n walking away wif unclear things n bringing short memories along... we cld work thing out or mayb not up to you now...Waiting for ur respond...tat all...dnt wanna say much let u think wats best...kaez

WAT I PLANNING TO DO NOW....
now im waiting to prepare myself for work..
im working at 4pm 2dae til 11pm...
aft tat im off all the way til thur ...tiz week i only work for 2 daes...hahaha...
ouhk juz now i ate chic lemak wif rice agn hahah...
ermm bored nt much to sae kae lah...

update story agn soon...xoxo!!!

L ate_N ight_e Njoy !!!

2009-11-01T21:38:00.015+08:00

ayn ma me done wif our hair...hahaz!!!

front view .....

goning crazy!!!

im back n love my new hair !!!! love it love it love it ... im now feeling abit tired as i only had 4hrs of clep ...haizz wanna noe what happen on SATURDAE?? ...well it was raining heavly at ma side of the area...b4 tat ML ladies n me plan to go escape 4 the halloween using ticket but naszira told ask tat we cnt use ticket halloween as she had try to use it last yr haizzz...ayn whn over to my house since our plan r down..we both slack at home while waiting 4 kid to be awake..i was super bored soo plan 2 juz col Iskandar up so i did...wat happen nxt was he came n mit us ladies wif Rabu...whn they came it was raining n cold n our mind whn blank of places 2 go..soo we whn to orchard to eat we got 2 sub way bisket 4 free!!coz it was left by tiz to chinese guys hahaha...aft eating we whn to send kid back to tamp,huda col to ask us out wif her bf n frens well we did not whn but juz stay wif our plan..ermm we whn to chamber to play games it was okea lah..rch hm abt 3+am whn to bed n woke up at 6+am was late 4 work!!! haizz n damn i 4got to bring ma ezlink so had to use coins haizz...money down the drain...over all outing was bored yet fun hahaha.....thx u all for the outing!!...

n Rabu i dnt really u'stnd wat u planing to do,why izit diffcult juz to face the fact or tell me the truth why r u hidding frm everything why u have to make up xcuses..plz dnt destroy ma life wif lies it painful trying not think abt wat had happen b4 wif ur way tat u treat me now im lost ..cn u make it clear to me cn u prove to me...or u juz a passing cloud in ma lyf ...our frenship have to much unclear things n u kept to much behind u, cn see it frm ur eyes..haiz hope u make it clear coz it not a game any more...im tired of lies..haizz wat a lyf im having...!!!NEXT !!!

n agn LOVE LOVE...!!!!!
whn it cum to LOVE!!! i dnt really noe abt it coz i dnt have a bf yet im lost n hey im still feeling complicated!!!!
well whn cld i smile really smile wif someone tat i cld trust,mayb for now i juz have to go with the flow to see wat happen nxt...but im unsure if i had oready prepare 4 the worse or the ending..am i wif hym or not let leave tat to Allah...

tune in for more on nxt update...xoxo ppl!! missing hym!!!

I_DONT_HAVE_THE_COURAGE

2009-10-31T12:11:00.011+08:00

HEY...ermm i was at the salon yest wif ayn,nurul n dyana....but only ayn n me tat cut our hair..n ayn hair turn out beautiful,what abt mine well at 1st i love it n my fren ask me to cut all my hair short coz it nice but i did not..haiz i dnt really like my hair now aft i really see it 4 a long time in the mirrow well what is done is done..ermm btw i love the weather is cold hhaa...ouhk what happen yest while my outing was going on i was abit piss coz i misses hym ..I whn to meet izan thx to hym for making me smile atleast i have sum1 who is ther 4 me..but IZAN im abit piss wif u BAD BOY!!u nvr tell me the story u half way sentence man!!...but its okea i still love u for being ther to make me smile n patience wif my rude attitude.. evn i dnt show u, i was down or had sumthing else on my mind well iM sowie mayb 1 dae u will u'stnd wats going on ard me...ermm i noe u always wanna see me happy n a smile on my face sumtyme i try to smile n try not to think of wat tat make me down juz to see u smile but u noe wat u done a great job all this while ..thx you SHAHRIZAN...

...........LOVE LOVE LOVE ..........
to hym!!!!
i dnt really noe wats going ard n wat gonna happen nxt..ermm sumtyme i juz feel like walking away but i cnt coz i started it...haizz i wish God cld help me ,let me be strong now to face all this..now i noe wat the meaning sumtyme love nid to sacrifice let thm go for sumthing better in future mayb he is juz not meant to be mine...i been feeling down latly juz think of you...now im still unsure wat i gonna do my tears fill my heart every time u i think of you...xoxo hacks

OOO_LIFE...

2009-10-29T14:01:00.004+08:00

hey..im back as usual bored!! im bored to hell mayb tat one of my fav word BORED!!!...frm the time im awake n tat is ard 10am til nw my mind is totally blank...i had waited 4 sum1 to col or msg but end up im the one who do it 1st haiyooo....nvm 4get it..soo wanna noe wat happen yest at work,well i got sick agn my tummy whn upside down n i cnt even stand stupid lah i hate the feeling u noe...btw i got my 2 mth voucher n i spent on a jelly bean dispenser tat cost me 50buck..haha ...erm yest aftnoon naszira col me juz to tell me she saw Abu walking infront of her at bugis w/o his notice...well til now im thinking wat the hell his doing ther alone..ermm evn ira dnt noe haizz nvm wateva it is WHO CARE!!im juz waiting 4 his col to ask him tat all..hahah ...well frens i still hate but love my life u noe ...yeah 2morow i gg to cut off my hair wif ML ppl...wish me luck hope it turn out beautiful...haizz...ouhk update agn later..i gg to watch tb n eat now join me if u wish too hahah...cya xoxo muahh...

HELLO_NEW_LADY_IS_BACK!!!

2009-10-28T13:59:00.007+08:00

HEY HEY people!!! CAT is here bebeby!!... i have a blog now hahah but it not quite done yet still not sastified wif it...i guess frm meow on i can share my side of story or sld i said my mind,life,feeling n wateva i been doing or soo on...soo tiz blog of mine i cn label it my meow 2nd diary!! but is nt tat personal uh..coz u all cn read it..haha..ooo well noe wat, while im doing tiz.. i gonna share wif u abt the weather, its raining n its cool ,n guess wat i'm thinking !! SLEEP lols!!!haha but i cnt ,WHY??coz i hv to prepare myself 4 work n im starting to feel lazy as i'm nt well nw..bt what cn i do i have no choice bt to go...okea i think tat it 4 now get back 4 more later...cya xoxo!!